Snapshots of Sydney holidays are best described in pictures. yet again, this is another excuse because i'm too lazy to do anything else *smug look* :) (give me some credit for picking out some pictures out of 300) ok so let's start with the obligatory sydney opera house picture with the 3 of us i went into the opera house and i fell in love with it. i wish i could watch a concert in there...it really is quite affordable contrary to what i believed. hmm. and pictures of the harbour bridge both on land and on a ferry. just don't ask what's with the pole. this is hyde park. if it isn't clear enough, i'm supposed to be captain cook (in the background) and lou's some flower. how dodgy. but anyway surrounding hyde park is the barracks, parliament house, state library, mint, etc. this is a "spot-su" picture taken in the barracks. i mentioned attending the hillsong easter service. it was actually at the Fox Studio and they had really cool props in a hidden dodgy corner. lou and i were exploring because we were too early for the service and we found it. we also got pretty well acquainted with Darling Harbour (it's really pretty at night and it's also where all the cafes/bars are situated) and we found this ice cream shop (30 bucks for 6 scoops ok. not cheap, not at all) but they had cool flavours like sticky rice (tastes like bubur hitam) lychee+rosepetals, black sesame.......... this was the sydney fish market. 70 dollars worth of seafood between the 3 of us. imagine how much sashimi and oysters we took. just imagine. hoho we also went to the royal easter show (like the one they have here at showgrounds) at the sydney olympic park. we met up with sin wee and her 2 friends - dan n nami. check out our pink/white plates. nyahaha. and err. we got our tourist-y BONDI BEACH shirts. actually. we didnt make it to the beach. but who cares. we got the shirts! surf rescue lou and lifeguard su to the rescue. zoom... ok so i didn't manage to put up ALL my pictures. other places we visited included hard rock cafe in kings cross, KARAOKE (O_O), paddy's market, yumcha at market city, chinatown, queen victoria building........ here are some of our nicer pictures. enjoyed sydney? :D

Go Away! just when i managed to find an excuse to hate you, you come back as if to taunt me. in my face. but please try harder. because i'm also trying harder not to get tricked into you.

Found Nemo i'm back from sydney all bloated and fat. as always, we took tons..i mean TONS of pictures but i havent gotten the other half of the pictures from eve so i shall not post them up. it's just another excuse because i'm too lazy to do anything now anyway. nonetheless i did manage to get one important picture. you see, i'm in love. oh yes. i'm in love. we went to the hillsong easter service and they invited delirious? and sonicflood. oh my. the delirious? lead vocal is too cute to be true. i'm risking sounding DITSY here but I DONT CARE. and considering i don't normally say these about ang mohs. he really is very cute. i realised the picture does him no justice. but oh my. my oh my. so apart from that, we did all the usual stuff....went to all sorts of tourist-y places, took all the tourist-y pictures, bought the tourist-y tshirts (which i must show u soon), and ate all the tourist-y food. speaking of food i've had more donuts today than in 2 years. 2 krispy kreme donuts are enough to keep me wide awake and sick in the stomach for a very very long time. >.< no donuts. no more donuts. >< have i also mentioned that my sanba pimple has been bugging me whole of the past 4 days? it has been named the sanba pimple thanks to its strategic location at the side of my chin which i reckon gives a very sanba look if a mole was in place. so it's going to be studying (i hope) for me for the next few days. oh and my mum reminded me today to "save money and to plan to slim down for jiejie's wedding". ho hum. weekend's approaching and i can smell the party already. dodgy douglas shall be its name. dont ask why.

*shifty eye look* hurhur sometimes even the most boliao things can be quite fun. like questionnaires. let's see... FIRST First best friend: Kaixin perhaps? First car: still waiting for one First pet: im not exactly that fond of pets. it was prob a fish. -_- First piercing/tattoo: my first earholes First musician you remember hearing in your house: New Kids on the Block? LASTS Last cigarette: never had one Last car ride: yesterday in lou's Last good cry: i really can't remember Last library book: The Bonesetter's Daughter Last movie seen: Hitch! Last beverage drank: diet coke Last food consumed: avocado :D Last time showered: at 6am Last shoes worn: black heels yest. havent been out the whole of today Last item bought: a dress Last annoyance: oh hoho. cf previous entry Last shirt worn: some dodgy home shirt Last website visited: lou's blog Last sentence you said: i think that your top looks fine as it is. Last song you sang: No Me Ames. HAHA or rather ATTEMPTED to sing. What color socks are you wearing: i'm not wearing any What's under your bed: some guy. What time did you wake up today? 4...PM O_O FUTURE Where do you want to go: arond the world! What is your career going to be: i wish i knew. do you want to hire me? Where are you going to live: err. Singapore? What kind of car(s): oh i believe in mood cars. a BMW, hot Pink VW beetle, mini cooper all on different days. CURRENT Current mood: happy to go to Sydney Current music: the Grammy nominees Current taste: huh? Current hair: chibaboom! Current annoyance(s): packing Current desktop picture: "Hello my name is Su and I am a gymaholic". courtesy of nikewomen.com 2003 Current book : The Bonesetter's daughter Current color of toenails: purple Current hate: you really dont want to know 1.Call me su 2. What color of pants are you wearing right now? beige 3. What Are You Listening To Right Now? shao nian by guang liang 4. What Was The Last Thing You Ate? baci cake *GUILTY* 5. Do You Believe In Karma? err.. 6. If You Were A Crayon, what color would you be right now? pink :D 7. How Is The Weather Right Now? too cold! 8. Last Person You Talked To On The Phone? my mummy 9. Do You Like The Person Who Sent You This? who? 10. How Are You Today? happy about sydney 11. Favorite Drink? water. sin would agree haha 12. Favorite Alcoholic drinks? johnniewalker n coke. 13. Favorite Sports? badminton. uhh. 14. Hair Color? black 15. Eye color? dark brown 16.Favorite Band/Group? no preference. 17. age of latest ex gf? again, who? 18. Favorite Month/s? december! 19. Favorite Foods? look there --> 20. Last Movie You Watched? Hitch :D 21. Favorite Day of the Year? my birthday perhaps? 22. Favourite Day of the Week? friday. :D 23. What Was Your Favorite Toy As A Child? doll doll. :D 24. Summer or Winter? winter 25. Hugs Or Kisses? hugs 26. Chocolate Or Vanilla? CHOCOLATE. unless it's ice cream then it's vanilla. 27. Do You Want Your Friends To Write/E- Mail Back? why not? 28. Who Is Most Likely To Respond? to what? 29. Who Is Least Likely To Respond? -_-" 30. Do You Think You're Normal? i think so. but i also think im the only one who thinks so. 31. What Is Under Your Bed? some guy. 32. Friends You Have Had The Longest? amira. but then again.....ermm... 33. What Did You Do Last Night? i cant remember 34. Favorite Smells? shower, laundry, kenzo, elizabeth arden. 35. Who Inspires You? ive yet to find one who truly does. 36. What Are You Afraid Of? regret. and plane rides :( 37. Plain, Buttered Or Salted Popcorn? i rather not have popcorn 38. favorite flower? i like them all :D 39. Number Of Keys On Your Key Ring? haha ONE 40. the last person you called? my mummy 41. the last person who called you? victoria 42. the last person you texted? my mummy 43. the last person who texted you? alex 44. the last person who said goodnight last night? could havebeen one of those i was talking to online. 45. the last person who said I love you? probably angela 46. the last person who gave you a testimonial? mervin 47. the last person who messaged you in friendster? i cant rem. madeline perhaps? 48. the last person you hugged? my mummy 4 weeks ago :( i need a hug! you know what. i can't believe i sat through that whole thing. then again i started it 4 hrs ago and completed it only after coming home. ha. anyway have a splendid easter. because easter's probably the best thing that can happen to anyone. :) sydney in 4 hrs!

Insomnia-Causing Agents i know..i shld stop complaining about being sleepless in case it induces sleep in you (-_-). but i managed to put a finger on what has been bothering me. "I Believe" is droning on in the background and i'm brought back to marriott days (prob the best days i've had here. so far. even when things didnt turn out the way i wanted them to.) looking through friendster yesterday shocked me into realization that there are so many things that i feel so sorry for. i'm not an ideal friend. as in. sometimes i just don't put in enough effort. perhaps. just looking at the number of relationships with various people that have ever since been left out in the cold since i decided that i have "no need" for it anymore (subconscious decision of course.) saddens me. it makes me wonder why didn't i just stick around? i don't know whether you get what i mean because i don't exactly want to be extremely explicit either. but it's how you look back and realise you feel so sad that some things just had to turn out a certain way. but it's even sadder when there's nothing you can do about it because when you're hanging out, everything can melt away and bring you back to the past...but the relational friction comes back to haunt you and remind you once you're apart. so back to insomnia-causing agents apart from that lousy-friend bit also comes the problem of "WHY ARE YOU SO STUPID, SU!" (for courting trouble when it doesn't even court you)

it's like a some kind of sadistic plan to destroy myself.

so i shall, like bun puts it, "flee from temptation island". bother me no more i say! no more at all. i hope.

Now what? so after getting about 45 mins of sleep at 1am..i read, drank soup and went online in hope of tiring myself out. after a few blogs, friendster surfing and writing a few testimonials, i decided to try cuddling with my pillow in bed but just as i began to get cumfy it was time for school. a nap in school was unsuccessful and i stoned a few hours away. so here i am..a walking zombie i really don't know what's wrong with me. sofia gave me a sleeping pill which is conveniently within reach in case tonight is going to be another sleepless night. hmm. school's finally out and it's strange how i have nothing to do. (ask me out someone? pls? hiak) i only have a thousand and one things to do on days tt i have classes and nowhere to go now that i have a legit reason to do so. how sad is this! let me go try and take a nap before deciding what to do tonight. @_@

Hello, Eyebags i cannot sleep again. i beginning to notice a trend. it usually happens on a wednesday night. BIG DESPERATE ROAR! i acted like a good little girl by going to bed at 1. i did fall asleep but strangely got awakened and am sleepless ever since. i've tried reading. drinking a bowl of hot soup. coming online. reading blogs. blogging. but i'm still feeling pretty awake. school is in 3.5 hours (8am!!!!) which means if i do go to bed now i can still nap for 2.5 hrs. how am i going to last until 5pm tmr. @_@ thankfully, it's the last day of school until 10 days later (although it really feels like the holidays already.) but surprisingly and IRRITATINGLY i'm not exactly looking forward to friday. i think i know why. but i dont want to admit it. humm. and stupid su is going to sydney but she aint feeling hyped up at this moment. why like that.

CBMG i officially return CBMG his title.

Snapshot i'm still trying to resize all my pictures so that they will all be standardised. i havent been very successful as you can see from the big heads/blackness/single faces anyone can help me with javascript? p/s: the pictures are taken over a period of 3 yrs. so forgive some dodgy looking ones. pp/s: remember i mentioned the nasi lemak that lou bought me? it took me 2.5 hrs to finish it and now i'm getting a stomach ache. it's punishment for eating so much.

Uh-Oh i'm pregnant. maybe not. but i feel pregnant. i've been having cravings the past 2 days... and it's not funny. so the current craving is for thai green curry. which i tried satisfying last night with bok choy (because that was the only thing i could cook in the middle of the night. pasta felt like a very wrong option). but obviously the attempt was futile and i'm left here wondering when i could drop by ying thai. at least i'm going to satisfy the nasi lemak craving thanks to lou who dabao-ed for me. hooray. sour, sweet, salty, spicy. they come all at once. so one moment i feel like cheese the next moment i feel like chocolate. if i really were to follow my heart and ignore the head (which i suspect is made up of nothingness at the moment) i'd be 5 kgs heavier by the end of this week. sigh. hope i feel better soon.

He's still my Guy (Sebastian) i think it's the hair and i think i have a destructive habit of digging my own grave.

Sleep is a rare commodity there's something terribly wrong with me. i. cannot. sleep. and to think i've been trying so hard to get rid of the eyebags. argggh! one would expect me to be dead on the bed by now considering i did not sleep at all last night. but somehow i'm still sitting around here before my comp, twiddling my thumbs and planning the day ahead. I'M SO TIRED! physically. but I'M SO NOT TIRED! mentally. heeeeelp. BUT i'm happy that our sydney trip has been confirmed and explorers su eve lou will be embarking on their adventure on the 26th and returning on the 29th. i am so excited. although i'm just going to a place an hr away. (note: an hr because we're flying. something possessed me to want to take a train earlier. i think it was called demon giam siap. but anyway i figured i shld just pay abit more instead of getting stuck in a 28-degree-inclination seat for 10 toodreadfullylong hrs). hohum! hohum! to ease the guilt of missing a couple of lectures and wasting so much money, i shall mug my easter holiday away. so if u see me doing anything else, please take the opportunity to turn me upside down and slap me hard. at the same time, do remember to cut me some slack for karaoke or something :P sorry dearies of the Queendom *how bizarre!* (haha that came out as naturally as zotan in dude where's my car) i will i will and i planned to put up your pics. :D the mahjong one i took with bun's slightly dodgy but i guess tt will suffice for now. i'll wait for u to come back before taking more pictures. speaking of which let's skype again soon. and i hope you got my emaaail! i can smell the weekend.

Mai ee ah hee my blog is slowly getting its structure back. but somehow i still cant get the table with my blog entries to be abit bigger. oh well. i'll just make do with it for now. *beam* i want to go on a holiday. or go home. then again, my family's dispersed around the world. sis in US and parents in china. oh whatever. i just dont want to go to school. it suddenly occured to me that it's my final year of school. O_O unless all goes well with my post-bachelorofbiomedsc plans (i shall not verbalise it in fear murphy would thwart them), I'M GOING HOME TO WORK AFTER THIS YEAR! which sparked a frenzy of searching for air tickets so that i can explore aust/go on a round-the-world trip before i'm doomed to adulthood. ok, so that's pretty ironic since i wouldn't even be 21 upon graduation. but for now, i'm just eyeing the virgin blue ticket to New Zealand. at least my parents have some intention for that. i need to convince them to go on a few holidays this year. roar! i still haven't found myself a hobby. other than downloading. and watching this videoclip(click) of our queendom anthem. oh hilarious.

If all goes well i'm going to sydney over easter! :D poo-ey i can smell my neighbour's cigarette smoke :\

HELP i really should start sleeping before 6am. some part of me just refuses to do so. i dont know why. i'm so tired but i just cant bring myself to go to bed. anyhoos, i noticed how everyone is getting busy trying to do something about their lives. and i mean do something. not bum away like me. i'm so guilty of a boring lifestyle. it's just a routine of going to school and coming back to non-enriching activities. what happened to the good ol' days of CCA? im sure many have set out resolutions early this year to at least accomplish something. be it to take up a new language, a new sport, exercise or some kind of hobby. i've seen many getting proactive, trying to reach their goals even if just by taking small steps. and then i ask myself WHAT ON EARTH ARE YOU DOING? my passion for life is slowly seeping away. i miss my willingness to try something different. i hate being stuck in rut...with the inability to budge from my comfort zone. by this time last year, i've already taken rowing classes. i need to do something about myself. now. distract me please from this mundane life of mine. anyone have any suggestions on what i can do that is cheap yet enriching? i really should consider that sewing machine that i've been longing to get since more than a year ago.

Who do you blog for? and what happens when you no longer want that audience anymore. i dont know. then i guess i'll just put up some pictures and trot along this was my last lunch in BTI. it was the only time my colleagues all had lunch together on a normal working day ever since i stepped into the office. this is the best i can do with my blog so far. still trying to figure it out. along with some other stuff.

I QUIT! because sometimes somethings are just NOT up to you.

Piping hot i've decided to agree with bun that the plumber in desperate housewives is really hot. anyway i'm so angry! why are they charging for a subscription to the straits times interactive? somehow everything's going wrong around here. apart from mouldy bread that i just threw out this morning, i can't find my home phone (i clearly labelled the box i packed it in and it's missing!!), my calling cards (2! of which 1 is almost brand new) and even if i can find them now, i just found out last night there's something wrong the the phoneline from my room and living room. my net is up but i've got no modem. and well, no phone line. at least tagboard is up now.

I'm Alive! very disoriented but alive nonetheless! currently blogging from the school comp cause there's no access from home. seems like bailieu has once again become more of a home than the real thing. in the midst of unpacking/packing/throwing/majorselling to clear everything in the house and make it look more like a home. school just started and it promises to be really busy already. sleepy!