First day of work contrary to belief, i did not end up doing something brainless like washing test tubes. i wish i did. so i arrived at BTI this morning and they throw me a lab coat (which is CLEAN thank goodness) and a notebook. yes a big fat notebook. like one of those that you'd use for practicals in school. that notebook was for me to record my experiments and my findings...i have to return it at the end of my attachment. what the?! why would i have any findings. im just a small fry! even before going up to the lab i already smelled danger. i met my scary fairy boss who turned out to be pretty nice. he put me with a girl. ok i really dont know what to call her. girl? woman? she's 27. not exactly young, but not old either. ANYWAY let me call her sf. and she shows me what she's doing....which is pcr, just cheemer. and within the first 10 mins i was in the lab i felt like i was in the WRONG place. like *deh* wrong wrong wrong! and during that 10 mins i seriously considered just getting married after graduating or doing another degree. i was so freaking lost i felt like a loser. -_-" i made a mental note to go home and read up. so now i'm stuck with a stack of "cell suicide for beginners" that i took from the office. oh! i have my own desk too. anyway, after lunch i was told we have a meeting. you know how people have book clubs where they all just sit around and discuss the book of the week. well, the first part of the meeting was journal club. what the! every week someone was meant to present a published article that my boss has chosen. they COMPLETELY LOST ME HERE. oh goodness gracious me. didnt help that i was so sleepy. i looked around and thought no one else knew what was going on either (btw everyone is very very young. 27's like considered old already. apart from the boss of course). naturally i assumed young=ignorant. but no! when they started asking questions i wanted to dig a hole and hide. i was so grateful when that was over. the second part of the meeting consisted of someone presenting an update of his work. I UNDERSTOOD THAT. *triumphant* finally, su. anyway, after a few more days of orientation around the lab and looking at how things get done around there, he's going to assign me something to do which is quite damn scary considering how much everything costs. and erm how terrible i am. but i'll pull through i guess. after ALOT of reading. work is like a day-long practical. i think i have no problems anymore with my 6 hr prac next yr. but you know what, at the end of the day, i decided it aint too bad after all. i didnt mind being there. the people were nice (although i can barely hold a conversation with them cause they were all conversing in chinese and im inapt and inadequate) and i was beginning not to feel so stupid. well well, i'm going to read now. maybe i'll have something to write in that notebook soon. i can't wait for lou and viv to start work! we need to go for lunch together. >< "not enough caspases? just order 4 more rabbits. you take two and you take two" O_O