When all the world's sleeping When i am studying, the night always seems longer than usual. suddenly 1am feels like 3am....and when i think about it...sleeping at 4am after spending the whole night doing i-dont-know-what is the same thing as sleeping at 4am after studying. why then does it seem so long. and so dreadful. i've never believed in studying into the night. my parents brought me up to do my work in the day and get enough rest at night to last the day ahead. but then again, "enough rest at night" in sec sch meant 5 hrs a night due to busy schedules. hmm. but im resorting to this because i'm incredibly desperate to do my work before going up to fallscreek this weekend. how i managed to waste so much time is beyond me. i have a mid sem next week. *thunder and lightning* in a way, the solitude is good. i dont think the household is asleep yet though (lou maybe but not michelle). honestly i dont know what we do. but i guess it's a far cry from those days when we can stay up the whole night doing cartwheels (think taylors hostel) ; playing bridge while eating meesiam and someone coming over at 5am to memorize an equation (think marriott). at least activity has reduced.... in the living room that is. there's no one else to talk to online. i love studying alone. but i need someone else to motivate me (+ studying in the lib is really boring me). what a dilemma. *rolls eyes*. im so fussy. i think all i need is a completely new environment. i havent found one that is convenient (i.e. not far away from home like bailieu) yet conducive (i.e. quiet, large tables, not too crowded). i have not found the perfect place yet. i miss bukit batok -__-. speaking of which, someone just got killed at the bukit batok mrt station because she fell off the platform. erm. hrm. a few signs im in trouble: - housemate mentioned that it seems like i just threw a party in my room - i have to dust my books before using them - im torn between using a notebook and using paper -__- well time to get back to pathology. my mum is worried cause she thinks im going mad. im such a naughty girl.