just took a loong....LOONG...walk in the PARK with.... lou (who were u expecting?) it was a whole 1 hr of sharing and just talking about serious stuff that we've probably nv talked abt before. what she has said pointed out the guilt ive been hiding (or have been trying to hide) in the past mths.... just really got me thinking abt how im living my life and how im a hypocrite. my actions and thoughts always contradict each other (negatively) and this is just something that ive been trying so so hard to change. i can safely say that ive changed quite a bit from last time.....but it just aint enough...cuz every small action counts. every mean thing ive said or done is still a sin. and what do i do about it? continue sinning. its not gonna be easy. but i have faith. i ask for forgiveness [by the way...tip for all ur lOOOoooOOovers out there...carlton gardens is a really good place to pak tor at night. its really deserted...and dark...but still bright enough to see each others' faces (in close proximity *wink*) a few rounds around the park is therapeutic and will prob do ur relationship good] *wink wink wink*