went to a gay/lesbian festival last night at federation square....eh gosh it gives kissing awhole new meaning. but the passion and pride of these homosexuals is something u'll never find in singapore. it was definitely an eyeopener. but i remain very heterosexual...............:| anyway i refused to get out of bed tis morn. im getting more and more in need of 8 hrs of sleep. bah. guess its alright its summer. i dont know why i dreamt of guy sebastian...sitting in front of me with that HAIR of his. my dream exaggerated the gel and the mass of it hahhahaha. ho to afro! "We can only learn to love by loving." --Iris Murdoch was reading oprah's inspirational quotes today and this was what popped up. this whole mth is focused on love. they give me tips and ideas on how to make my love life better each day. problem is my love life is non existent. we can only learn to love by loving? what if ive never loved? does this mean i dont know how to love? and if i dont know how to love, how's it goin to happen when love actually comes along? people always tell me. JUST LOVE. just do it. and everything else will fall into place. but i cant do it. i dont know how it is to JUSTLOVE for im too highstrung and idealistic. every little thing must be perfect. everything must have some thought put into it. a romance that is slightly less than perfect is not my cup of tea. and then sudden realization. im completely missing the pt here. since when do such things become perfect hrm. i think i do noe how to love. i noe what love is with God. with my family with my friends. will that work out to be the same? i dont know but i'll find out